I have been working really hard for the past year and a half. This graduate school thing is definitely work... and then there is work. Work is nothing like school, but, well, let's just say that it is definitely work. It has been a while since something really excellent has happened. Not that anything bad has happened, but I feel like it's time for something good. Time for reward. It's gotta be close. I can sense there is something on the horizon. I am extremely grateful for the amazing life that I have. I don't have anything to complain about, but I'm starting to feel as though I am stuck running ladders at soccer practice without a water break in sight. No game. No opportunity for a win. No losses, but no trophies.
Okay, so I'm not actually looking to play soccer here. I just feel like I am running out of steam. I need an incentive, a change or a little recognition... or maybe just a vacation. I don't know. No time to dwell on it now, I've got homework.
Wa-wa-wuuuaaaaahhh!
I'm such a Debbie-Downer - sorry guys :(
I've been there. Actually, most days I am there.
ReplyDeleteI like to think of this as my "work to live" phase. I don't feel passionate about my job, but it allows me to have the kind of life outside of work I want to have. I still hope for more, though...
Thanks Abby :)
ReplyDeleteI think a lot of it is the fact that up to this point, my life has been full of change and adventure, and for the first time ever, I have been in the same place with the same routine for almost two years. It makes me feel oh-so-very anxious :)
Hey Kate, that is exactly what happened to me at LTF-- at right about 2 years I was like okay my positive attitude and inner light is dying and it needs a break or maybe an eternal hiatus from that place. Listen to yourself! Also on a side note I think its time for a date asap...I'm sending you and email, like now.
ReplyDeletexoxo- kali
Hm, I wish I had some great advice or insight for you on this topic, but unfortunately my answer was to move to Norway. I fully understand where you are coming from, and think once you finish with school and get your teaching license, you will have so many opportunities to go places, see things and have that "change" that you are so deperately needing and seeking. When that happens, these crappy feelings will feel like distant memories...REMEMBER the end is in sight- hang in there friend!! :)
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